Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Silent nights and wine.

My parent's just closed their deck, and it's easily becoming one of my favorite spots to relax. I almost feel bad being out here on my computer. Almost.

Tomorrow night is opening night for "Merchant of Venice" at Wichita Center for the Arts. I'm absolutely in love with it. I think the production is great, and everyone is giving a solid performance. Yesterday at our first dress rehearsal I put on my stage makeup for the first time in a year (other gigs, the house has been so small I haven't needed it) and I woke up this morning and my eye was swollen shut. After a friend mentioned that the makeup may have been too old and gross that caused it, I realized what it was. Then this morning I did children's theatre and then off to dress rehearsal for Merchant.


It's kind of weird doing children's theatre in the mornings then Shakespeare at night, how diverse can it get really?

I am constantly taken aback at how great my support system is. People in Merchant have been so kind to me, one of the actors/producers was asking about my future plans and I said I was thinking Chicago and he mentioned how great that was for me, and he was hoping I'd say Chicago and gave me some names to contact when I get there. It's things like that, that really get to me. Most everyone has been nothing but kind to me, and when I still feel a little out of place because I'm not exactly sure how things are run, is the best feeling in the world.

I have finally been able to sit down with the "Monky Business" script, a show I am stepping into mid-run in May. I'm very excited for it, for one, it's at my favorite theatre in Wichita (as of now, in the world) and it's a hilarious show. The cast is great, and I just love everyone there. I miss them like crazy. I'm excited to be stepping in also, I've never done ANYTHING like that before. How it will work is, during the day, I'll go in and get blocking/choreography/song help. Then during the show, I will go and watch and "practice" as much as I can, then I will get one put in rehearsal which means a full on show (lights, sound, costumes, etc..) and then show time. It's kind of crazy but I work best under the pressure. My part is very fun. I get to be the bad guy. I'm never the villain! And I get some pretty great songs.

But for now, I shall retire to bed and try to get everything in order!

Friday, March 23, 2012

Routine? What's that?

My schedule is all kinds of messed up, which is fine. I'm one super busy dude, which is fine, I prefer to stay busy, but beaten to the ground? Not so much.

Besides working 40 hours a week, and rehearsals, I just tacked on a second show at the same time. I love it. It's why I do it, I suppose. This is how my schedule is about to become

work 5am-12pm
rehearsal #1- 12:30-2:30pm
rehearsal #2- 7:00pm-10:00pm

I know that doesn't look too bad... but it really is.


"Merchant of Venice" rehearsals are well on their way. We are currently in the blocking phase which we just finished tonight! It's so great to be working with the company. I am already noticing a huge difference in people's processes, which I am obsessed with. Danette, who plays "Portia" is a treat to watch. I can watch as she scans her line. Sometimes she will say a line, think of a movement, and then start again. Every action and word is justified, and it amazes me considering we have barely started. Others I notice working on their lines. There are the pacers (like myself) who have to pace back and forth while they get their lines memorized, and the ones who sit and work quietly. It's a lot of fun, and I don't feel as intimidated as I thought I would. I feel fine and fresh and at home. The theatre we are in reminds me so much of Emporia, it makes me almost miss it. I miss the Bruder stage to death, this theatre has the same dark ambiance and the same smell.

So apart from Merchant, I will be starting rehearsals for a children's show again. We perform that week with that at the same time I perform Merchant, so it will be Children's Theatre in the morning/afternoon, and Shakespeare in the evening. Could it get anymore diverse? It's gonna be one fine paycheck at the end of April, hallelujah.

And beginning May 17, I will be stepping into the roll of Brother Clarence in "Monky Business" at The Cabaret Oldtown. I love that theatre so much. The building itself, but especially the people in it. Everyone there is a real gem. I like Cabaret because they don't take themselves too seriously. You go there for a good time. My favorite part of the evening is after the show is over and we sit and talk and have a couple drinks reflecting on the show, the past week. I always laugh the hardest when I'm with those people.

Other news, grad school is a no go. Again. While I feel like a loser and really kicked myself when it became official, I have to remember there are a lot of factors that go into grad school, and it is out of my hands. I got six call backs to some great programs, I should be proud of that. I think I just am correlating the fact that I didn't get into grad school as not having any talent. I don't know how to say this without sounding like a pretentious asswipe, but I must have some sort of talent. I've been booked for a year now. I thought once I left school I wouldn't ever act again. And here I am, doing it. The plan is to move to Chicago and work there for a bit. See if something comes of it. I want to get into sketch comedy again, and do some improv again. I miss it and really am sad not doing ZOIKS! the last couple years of school. I just didn't agree with what was happening to the group. I've been out of improv for a few years and I really think I would be OK at it again. I also have been trying to write some standup jokes. It's a lot harder and a lot more intimidating than anything I've ever done. If I bomb and my jokes suck, it's all on me. But I am gonna take it as a challenge and go for it.

I guess I should probably go to bed.

Sunday, March 4, 2012

Chapter Closed. New one.

Tour is over. Tour is over. Tour is over. Can't say it enough. Tour is over.

Phew. Sigh. Phew.

It was a great experience overall. I really do have a lot of respect for Wichita Children's Theatre. Yes sometimes it is a giant cluster fuck and everyone is scrambling around but in the end the show goes on, and the kids don't notice a thing. This job helped me cooperate and have a more easy going attitude towards everything. I realized, in college, I took things too seriously. I was so worried about everyone else's actions, I didn't concentrate enough on my own. I needed to worry about MYSELF.

My goal going into this was to adjust to each space and each audience. I felt I did so with positive results. In the beginning I was able to talk to the director and ask him what he thought about "improvising" or adding little things here and there and he said absolutely. If the audience had several adults, I'd try to add a couple jokes that only they would get, and if the kids were silent, I'd try to add things here and there to get them to laugh. The thing about Children's Theatre is there can be no acting. All of the "being in the moment" bullshit doesn't apply here. Goal: Always move, find a voice pattern, make them laugh. They aren't there to get their heart broken, or watch you perform a brilliant monologue. Nope. They want to see something funny, hear some songs, and maybe learn a lesson. I felt I was able to accomplish that. It was hard working with the same 3 people every day, and even traveling with them. It downright sucked at times. I'm someone who likes my alone time, and throughout these 6 months, I dealt with a lot of personal issues that were really hard and part of being a grown up, and I just wanted to be left alone to sulk or whatnot, but I had no privacy. I think that was probably the hardest part for me, adjusting to being around people 24/7. Luckily the second half allowed for a lot more free time. We would be done around 3:30 and I could also go work at the hotel in the evenings and have a little bit of a breather. I really found a confidence in myself through this which is kind of crazy. I got reassurance that I am a hard worker, and am dependable. I balanced two (sometimes three) jobs and only a couple times were late (because of fluke things). I don't need anybody to tell me I'm a hard worker. I know I am. Comments from my bosses from all jobs I held prove that I am, and it's discouraging hearing other people say I'm not, however I am confident (don't confuse that with cockiness), and it really helps me tackle anything.

Immediately after we got home we struck the tour and I had the initial meet and greet with the cast and crew of "The Merchant of Venice". Walking in I noticed one thing.... I am by far the youngest person of the cast. Which is completely intimidating for me. I'm an over thinker. I can over think any situation. Everyone basically knew each other, or knew OF each other, maybe they only met in passing a few years ago, or they did a show together last year somehow everyone seemed connected in some way. Then I walk in... It felt like the movies where someone unwanted walks in and everyone immediately abandons their conversation and it falls completely silent. It felt like the first day at a new school. However, after everyone had a couple cocktails and a glass of wine conversations between myself and them seemed to flow more naturally. I even was able to make them all laugh with a couple jokes. Phew. Rehearsals don't officially start until the 19th of March so I'm going over lines already and finding research. He's setting the show right before WWII. It will be neat, and a great experience I'm sure. I've been dying to do a show with a little meat in it. I'm sorry but performing a song with the lyrics "I like no peak chicken and spruce juice goose, they're my all time favorite dishes/ No peak chicken and spruce juice goose I like them better than spinach or fishes" gets a little old after oh... a week, and that lasted for 6 months.

Now. I worked early this morning, and have a couple hours for a nap, so that's what I'm gonna do!

Saturday, February 25, 2012

When the road gets dark and cold, walk home!

I forgot this thing existed. I don't think anybody reads it, and that is perfectly OK.

Life summary.

Went to Chicago for some Grad School auditions. I approached this completely differently than I did last year. I did things on my terms. Last year I was at the mercy of a professor who often times made it feel like there is no way to get into grad school unless I did it his way. The monologues had to be approved by him, the way I said them, blah blah blah. Yes, at some point I could have ignored him and dismissed his comments, but I didn't feel confident enough to do so. This year, I chose the monologues, I chose how to perform them, I chose everything. I felt REALLY good about it. Some comments I heard after the auditions for the schools were "we were REALLY with you today, did you know that? everyone was with you." or "so refreshing" or "everything was subtle and you hit all the moments in your monologue". Yes I am bragging, because I can. Anyone that knows me well knows I am not as confident as I may come across. I get super paranoid and self conscious about things. So to hear that meant a lot. I got 6 call backs to some great programs around the United States, and even one in the UK. I visited with all but one, a program I had a bad experience with last year so I politely declined their interview.

Then visited Michigan State University, my number one program and wasn't instantly in love with the program and the school when I saw it in person. I wasn't because a.) it's really far away from home b.) I was worn out. But after I slept on it for a while I realized how much I really do like the program. Illinois and Michigan State are my two top choices, and I had just found out I am in the running for both programs. So that's awesome!

Tour ends next week, and all I have to say is thank god. There are several reasons as to why I am ready for that to be over, but I will just mention I am ready to do a real play again. For the most part it has been a rewarding experience. I learned people have different ways of doing things and that is OK. The Wichita Children's Theatre is a great nonprofit organization and I get to see how excited the kids are when they enter that building.

The tour is over the 3rd of March and that evening we are having a meet and greet for the next show I am doing at Wichita Center for the Arts. We are doing "The Merchant of Venice" and I am playing Lorenzo. I am very excited about it. For the first time in my life I will be doing a show where everyone is age appropriate. It's neat getting a paycheck for doing shows. Am I getting paid enough to live off of it? Helllllll no. BUT I'm able to work at my other job and pay the bills with that so the money from theatre is some spending cash.

things have been busy for lil ole me but I wouldn't have it any other way!

Monday, October 31, 2011

Phew

Look at this. Look at what I'm doing. I am breathing. Yes. BREATHING.

I haven't been able to do that lately because life seems so hectic!

The Wichita Children's Theatre tour is going well for the most part. Little things here and there but nothing I haven't been able to just let blow over. As my mother says "choose your battles wisely, son."

It is an amazing experience for the most part. I mean truly. We have been able to perform for 6,000 + kids and we have only been doing this for a month!

It is amazing when kids come up and tell you how much they love the show. It is painful when we perform these children's shows for kids who clearly don't want to be there. It's just painful.

Aside from that I'm holding another job at the Hotel, which for the most part I love. I love the people I work with. Lots of funny people. AND every day is different.

We actually have more than 2 days in Wichita for once which is very nice.

Wed the 26th was my birthday and it began when 180 kids sang Happy Birthday for me after the children's show. Then we were able to drive to Wichita and I went out with some great friends. They took care of me that's for sure.

Then Thursday I had lunch with my best friend Brittney and then I did some shopping for myself.
Friday my sister took me to lunch and then that night we had Children's Theatre.

I'm just having a great time with everything right now.

Trying to stay positive and remember the bigger picture of things!

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Tour

Tour has kicked off! So far for the most part has been extremely positive. What isn't so positive, I need to learn to go with the flow better. It's always been a problem of mine. I like doing things my way on my time, so when that isn't possible i get aggravated. However, it is frustrating when I can't even try it my way. But that's that.

Children's Theatre has proven to be a lot trickier than I had thought it would be. For one, everything I learned in school is just immediately thrown out the window. Forget making things make sense for yourself. Moving with a purpose? Pshaw. You're basically moving and crossing and any other type of blocking movement just to keep moving, because kids don't like seeing people stand around and talk. They like movement. What's that hard work that I spent forever on in order to make sure I don't keep speaking in any sort of speech pattern? Forget it.

Go big or go home. Is basically the name of the game.

I don't know how to talk about this next part without sounding like a giant pretentious ass hole, but I did a children's show in the summer so I got the crash course then. I also worked with people who had done several children's shows before so I was able to really learn how they do it. We had a few times in rehearsal where Kyle our director would remind us we're being too actory. Which, you can't. You just simply can't. You feel silly but once you get past that wall of "oh my god, I look like an idiot" and just commit to it, that's when it starts to pay off.

Barb (choreographer) and Kyle (director) would always tell us those things and right now I'm still not sure we're at the level yet. Each show I personally try to add something different, maybe in an applause moment I just add a silly line or whatnot.

Children's theatre is tricky it is.

But. It really is a wonderful feeling to perform for an audience that 100 percent loves everything you do. They are no critics. They will not tell you you're character was not fully developed, or that you sang off key. They either love you or they don't. And they won't love you if you half ass it or take it too seriously.

So far we've performed for 2000+ little kids and also have been able to teach them a little theatre etiquette as well.

After one of the public performances we had a little autograph session and some of the kids told us how they saw the show once and they had to come back. Or how this was their first play they've ever seen before. We also took a couple pictures with some. It was all fun and cute. It's neat that we made their day.

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Look at me go!

I must admit, when it comes to life, I have been kicking it's ass lately.

These past few weeks have been extremely amazing.

Putnam is now closed. It was a little sad for a bit because we extended for three weeks and immediately our attendance plummeted. Some audiences were small and mighty, but some were small and very rarely laughed. Which. If you have seen or know anything about the show, if the audience isn't really "getting it" it makes for a painful show.

Along with that, I met someone really neat. Unfortunately they travel a lot so the chances of things getting serious are slim to none, but who knows, weirder things have happened right?

I also just started and am in the middle of week 1 of Wichita Children's Theatre tour rehearsals. So far so good!!! We are doing Tom Sawyer and Chicken Little. Tom Sawyer will be difficult, I have about half a page for quick changes, which won't be anything too drastic. That and it's just worded weird. I have to remember this is a CHILDREN'S show. I keep wanting to play it seriously and hold back, and I must learn that that is not acceptable. Yes I am going to look like a dork. But this is a style of theatre I've never done before. It's a lot of fun, for one I am working with Kyle V. again. We were in Putnam County together and he is just one of hte funniest people I've ever met. Along with him, Barb, another person I met through Cabaret is choreographing. It's just a lot of fun.

Along with THAT I just got cast in "The Merchant of Venice" at Wichita Center for the Arts. I got the role of Lorenzo. When I first talked to the director I told him I didn't care if I had one line and left the stage, just ANYTHING for a resume would help me out. So we met at Starbucks and he had me do a monologue... at Starbucks. It was awkward at first but in the end it worked.

I'm really excited about these jobs I'm beign able to add to my resume. All three are VASTLY different from one another.
One being a musical for 15 weeks at a "dinner theatre" (not really a dinner theatre because they don't serve dinner but they serve appetizers.." the other a 6 month long touring children's show, and the third being a Shakespeare. All at different companies.

I really thing the reason I didn't get into grad school last year was because of my bleak resume. All I had on it was Emporia State stuff, it was a comment I got more than once. So in one year being able to work in three different theatres with three vastly different roles should definitely help my chances for next year.

Alright. I'm exhausted. I've been doing rehearsal from 10-4 then work 4-10ish. Very long days for me, but I'd rather be tired than bored.

- DML