When the road gets dark and cold, walk home!

I forgot this thing existed. I don't think anybody reads it, and that is perfectly OK.

Life summary.

Went to Chicago for some Grad School auditions. I approached this completely differently than I did last year. I did things on my terms. Last year I was at the mercy of a professor who often times made it feel like there is no way to get into grad school unless I did it his way. The monologues had to be approved by him, the way I said them, blah blah blah. Yes, at some point I could have ignored him and dismissed his comments, but I didn't feel confident enough to do so. This year, I chose the monologues, I chose how to perform them, I chose everything. I felt REALLY good about it. Some comments I heard after the auditions for the schools were "we were REALLY with you today, did you know that? everyone was with you." or "so refreshing" or "everything was subtle and you hit all the moments in your monologue". Yes I am bragging, because I can. Anyone that knows me well knows I am not as confident as I may come across. I get super paranoid and self conscious about things. So to hear that meant a lot. I got 6 call backs to some great programs around the United States, and even one in the UK. I visited with all but one, a program I had a bad experience with last year so I politely declined their interview.

Then visited Michigan State University, my number one program and wasn't instantly in love with the program and the school when I saw it in person. I wasn't because a.) it's really far away from home b.) I was worn out. But after I slept on it for a while I realized how much I really do like the program. Illinois and Michigan State are my two top choices, and I had just found out I am in the running for both programs. So that's awesome!

Tour ends next week, and all I have to say is thank god. There are several reasons as to why I am ready for that to be over, but I will just mention I am ready to do a real play again. For the most part it has been a rewarding experience. I learned people have different ways of doing things and that is OK. The Wichita Children's Theatre is a great nonprofit organization and I get to see how excited the kids are when they enter that building.

The tour is over the 3rd of March and that evening we are having a meet and greet for the next show I am doing at Wichita Center for the Arts. We are doing "The Merchant of Venice" and I am playing Lorenzo. I am very excited about it. For the first time in my life I will be doing a show where everyone is age appropriate. It's neat getting a paycheck for doing shows. Am I getting paid enough to live off of it? Helllllll no. BUT I'm able to work at my other job and pay the bills with that so the money from theatre is some spending cash.

things have been busy for lil ole me but I wouldn't have it any other way!