Here we go.... again.

I am starting a blog again. Why? At this point I don't really know. I will be clear and specify this is not a journal. I refuse to write down personal and private things on a blog, but here are some of my thoughts.

Grad school. Yipes. I am in love with a specific program, and cannot imagine myself anywhere else, but it's highly selective so I'm scared. I have to be confident in my abilities as an actor and performer and show them I am the best possible choice for their program. This raises the question. How does one do that without sounding cocky or arrogant?

My time at Emporia is dwindling, and I have to say I think I may have over stayed my welcome. I am getting to the point where I think I have learned what I can from this program and am ready to learn more... else where. I'm not sure what makes me think this or if I have any right to think so, but I do.

I chose this program for several reasons.
1.) Location- I knew I didn't want to go to WSU for several reasons. Nothing against the program, it's actually a great program for musical theatre, and I have not seen a straight play there so I cannot comment on that, but I just knew I didn't want to go there. I wanted to go away from home. I had a lot of growing up and learning to do. I was never impressed with KU, and KState didn't appeal to me either. I liked Emporia's location. Only an hour away from home so if I needed to I could easily transport back home.
2.) Emporia has three distinct directing styles that I appreciate.
3.) They are a generalist program. Meaning they teach about all aspects of theatre... I'm still trying to decide if I like this now. It appealed to me in the beginning but now that I'm going through it, I am finding I wish I could just focus on one aspect rather than all of them, I guess that is what Grad school is for.
4.) Emporia usually represents pretty well at ACTF Region V. The year before I entered the program a girl made it to the national competition, and we usually have a handful of students breaking into semi-finals, not an easy thing to do.

I have learned a lot about myself, and my craft here at ESU that I'm wondering I would learn anywhere else. Some personal struggles, some that have been right in front of my face the whole time, I just needed someone to point it out to me.

I have re-defined successful. Or what successful means to me. Before, successful meant Broadway. Nope! Not entirely true.

Another thing I've learned to appreciate are the people. There are some amazing people that have helped shape myself and have proven to be a positive influence on myself.

I think this is enough ramblings for the moment. Besides, I'm at rehearsal.

Till next time.

- Dylan Mark Lewis